Ok, so first off, I want to thank everybody for the birthday wishes. I'm one of those strange people who like to try to hide my birthdate, but some of you still manage to wish me happy birthday. I actually think I got the most wishes this year (thanks in part to my workplace - I tried once to remove my birthdate from the company calendar, but failed). Thank you much!

I can now rent a car without paying jacked up prices! Yay! The next age milestone I have to look forward to is 59 1/2, when I can start putting out what remains of my Roth IRA without paying taxes (ooooh). Yay, life.

Now, onto a more serious topic. One of my friends (*COUGH JENNIFER COUGH*) recently went to England for Thanksgiving break. While at Stonehenge, guess who she ran into?

RACHEL MCADAMS. RACHEL. FRIGGIN. MCADAMS.

And you know what infuriates me?! She didn't even TRY to hook me up with her!

How hard would it have been to be like, "Oh, Rachel, I love your work! Can I get a picture with you? Great, thanks! By the way, I know this AWESOME guy - you'd make the cutest couple! Can I pass him your contact information? You should totally marry him."

HOW HARD?! HOW HARD, DO I ASK?????

P.S. I thought Jennifer was pulling my leg until she provided picture proof - dag it!

Just got back from Big Sur - the final drive down was a whopping 12 hours (forgot everybody was driving back this weekend) - I hit traffic in every conceivable place... trying to leave Big Sur, all alone the 101, then all around LA, then around SD as well.

Anyways, I think I'll be largely disappointed with the photos I took once I load them all on my computer - I was mostly active midday (which means the sun was way too bright and washed out any good photos). (I may also break my own rule of doing some post-production work in Photoshop with these photos)

Anyways, this one is from the drive up Friday night:

More to come as I get a chance to sift through them.

Update: I ended up pruning the whole collection down to 24 tonight and I've posted them up at http://roykim.net/photos/big-sur/

They turned out pretty decent, actually!

lagginglikeamofo (1:25:17 AM): is this easier than texting?
sllybilygoat89 (1:26:11 AM): I don't care im bored and horny walking home it doesn't matter
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:26 AM): wtffff.
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:28 AM): haha
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:35 AM): where are you walking home from?
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:47 AM): and why do you always end up texting me when you're horny?
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:59 AM): It's a constant state for you, haha
sllybilygoat89 (1:27:18 AM): Is that a problem for you one
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:29 AM): Nope.
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:41 AM): It's entertaining.
sllybilygoat89 (1:27:48 AM): And secnd im walking home from state
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:57 AM): ooh
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:09 AM): I have a suspicion that he has a gf
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:15 AM): It's not confirmed
sllybilygoat89 (1:28:24 AM): And wouldn't you want someone who is akways horny cause I know you like fucking
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:32 AM): Yeah.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:33 AM): I do.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:35 AM): But uh
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:42 AM): That doesn't help me.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:56 AM): You and I might be horny little kinks, but we operate as friends.
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:00 AM): So how does that benefit me?
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:02 AM): Haha.
sllybilygoat89 (1:29:41 AM): To bad we didn't fuck more offten then that might be help
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:46 AM): Uhhhhhh
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:48 AM): Noooooo.
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:53 AM): Because you have a girlfriend.
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:02 AM): And we tried that twice, it didn't work out very well.
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:15 AM): =P
sllybilygoat89 (1:30:45 AM): What do you mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:52 AM): You know what I mean.
sllybilygoat89 (1:31:18 AM): No explain
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:35 AM): Well Layne is your gf
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:42 AM): I'm pretty sure she wouldn't want us fucking
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:52 AM): secondly, when we DID try to fuck before
sllybilygoat89 (1:31:59 AM): Not much longer
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:59 AM): it wasn't much of anything.
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:04 AM): WTF.
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:07 AM): what do you mean?
sllybilygoat89 (1:32:36 AM): Well im about to break up with her
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:43 AM): Why is that?
sllybilygoat89 (1:32:45 AM): That's what I mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:42 AM): Like, why?
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:48 AM): are you sick of her?
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:51 AM): is she bad at sex?
sllybilygoat89 (1:33:56 AM): Because it isn't working out and plus I might be leaving soon
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:01 AM): ah.
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:11 AM): well didn't I try to warn you about that ahead of time?
sllybilygoat89 (1:34:15 AM): And she wouldn't stay with me when I leave
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:29 AM): you never listen to me, sir.
sllybilygoat89 (1:35:35 AM): And sex is ok but not amazing or hell I just wanna fuck and she isn't horny enough fo me ahahha
lagginglikeamofo (1:35:56 AM): LOL.
lagginglikeamofo (1:35:58 AM): Really?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:03 AM): That's unfortunate.
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:15 AM): Are you drunk right now?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:23 AM): Just out of curiousity.
sllybilygoat89 (1:36:47 AM): Not anymore im walking home why?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:58 AM): Because you rarely talk to me like this.
sllybilygoat89 (1:37:25 AM): What do you mean like this
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:02 AM): Well, you don't talk to me as much anymore.
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:13 AM): Plus you were being mean yesterday.
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:24 AM): Soooooo. I don't really know what to expect from you.
sllybilygoat89 (1:40:26 AM): sory I was trying to be real with you im sorry I came off as mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:17 AM): Be real? Ha. You sort of came off as condescending, and considering you and Jill had been in the same situation...
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:22 AM): but it's okay.
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:23 AM): But I will def say im really horny right now and im totally serious haha
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:27 AM): ha.
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:29 AM): Yeah well
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:33 AM): that suckssss.
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:48 AM): What sucks
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:54 AM): that you're horny!
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:56 AM): Me being horny
sllybilygoat89 (1:42:07 AM): Or me being condisending
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:14 AM): you being horny.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:19 AM): sucks to be horny without having someone.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:30 AM): That's been me for the past two days, but tomorrow night I should be just fine.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:31 AM):
sllybilygoat89 (1:42:47 AM): Yeah tell me about that I wanna fuck so bad
lagginglikeamofo (1:43:00 AM): well. you can fuck layne then break up with her.
lagginglikeamofo (1:43:04 AM): I'm so awful/.
sllybilygoat89 (1:44:23 AM): Yeah honestly I had better sex I really would much rather fuck you then her right now
sllybilygoat89 (1:44:54 AM): I mean she doesn't know what to do
sllybilygoat89 (1:45:11 AM): And I thnk we were both uncomfortable
lagginglikeamofo (1:45:29 AM): LOL.
lagginglikeamofo (1:45:34 AM): Oh you're sweet.
sllybilygoat89 (1:45:51 AM): If me and you hadn't of cared I think we would have fuucked the shit out of each other
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:04 AM): Yeahhhh...
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:12 AM): But you weren't into it at all.
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:13 AM): And how am I sweeet
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:14 AM): Clearly.
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:34 AM): I didn't think you were into it
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:40 AM): That's why
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:42 AM): wtf.
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:45 AM): Really?
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:50 AM): Did I give off that vibe?
sllybilygoat89 (1:47:38 AM): I thought we were just fucking cause of hormoness and plus I really wanted to ealy but I guess I read you wroong
sllybilygoat89 (1:47:43 AM): And yes you did
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:14 AM): Eh. I didn't really know how to get it started, to be quite honest.
sllybilygoat89 (1:48:20 AM): I kinda just wanted to fuck you all night to be honeat
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:27 AM): But insteadddd
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:29 AM): we talked.
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:33 AM): Hahaha.
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:57 AM): It was fucking awkward as hell.
lagginglikeamofo (1:49:12 AM): So I kept talking, cause that's what I do to diffuse awkwardness.
sllybilygoat89 (1:50:06 AM): So your telling me you wanted to fuck the entoire time but we didn't god damn it
lagginglikeamofo (1:50:29 AM): WELL... It would have been awkward me just mounting you out of no where
lagginglikeamofo (1:50:31 AM): I mean wtf.
lagginglikeamofo (1:51:05 AM): And like, I dunno... you were just chillin', so I was like, fuck. All this anticipation, expectations, and talk... and we're both fucking lame.
sllybilygoat89 (1:52:04 AM): I honestly would have have been okay I felt like that's all you wanted and then when we finally did I was so tired
lagginglikeamofo (1:53:07 AM): I was wondering about that.
sllybilygoat89 (1:54:35 AM): I honestly came over just wishing it would be a fuck fest and you would be a naughty dirty girl and it just didn't seem like that
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:16 AM): LOL. Well I'm like that after a couple of drinks or when I'm comfortable.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:24 AM): I mean, when Chris came to the door a couple weeks later
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:28 AM): I had dressed up for him
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:30 AM): hard core.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:35 AM): and we went at it like rabbits,.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:42 AM): but uh, considering that it was hella awkward
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:46 AM): with you and I
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:51 AM): I didn't illicit that response.
sllybilygoat89 (1:57:13 AM): Well how bout we just agree ahead of time that we wanna fuck the shit out of each other and damn it dress up
sllybilygoat89 (1:57:26 AM): And let me have some foreplay hahaha
lagginglikeamofo (1:57:45 AM): You're assuming that I want to have sex with you again.
lagginglikeamofo (1:57:59 AM): Johnnn, I thought we determined that we're friends.
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:12 AM): I hate lying to Chris, it tears me apart on the inside.
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:35 AM): He nearly dropkicked me when he asked who I'd been with... something came up where I lied and said Ed
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:53 AM): and he was like, "Oh ok, I thought you were going to say John"
lagginglikeamofo (1:59:29 AM): I mean, I can't even talk to him normally now because of what I did to help you out.
sllybilygoat89 (1:59:43 AM): okay I understand but that doesn't mean I don't think about you sometimes
lagginglikeamofo (2:01:06 AM): why aren't you coming to my birthday, then?
sllybilygoat89 (2:02:52 AM): What are you talking about
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:06 AM): Uhhh you responded on facebook with a negative, dear.
sllybilygoat89 (2:03:13 AM): Do you want a b daay sexualy favor gift
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:50 AM): See, I don't really know who will be at my bday. I thought about inviting you, Chris, Brian, Ed, and Ray, and seeing who actually shows up
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:53 AM): and what goes down.
sllybilygoat89 (2:03:59 AM): And I should have said im not sure not no sorry
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:08 AM): I might have too many sexual gifts.
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:09 AM): =P
sllybilygoat89 (2:04:42 AM): What if your had five guys do you that night hahaha
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:58 AM): HA. that'd be massively slutty.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:03 AM): I'd rather not
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:22 AM): especially since Chris would strangle you alive if you showed.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:46 AM): Brian would just cry in a corner or some shit.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:58 AM): or drunkenly try to fight you again.
lagginglikeamofo (2:06:01 AM): blahhh.
sllybilygoat89 (2:06:40 AM): What if no one found out lol
sllybilygoat89 (2:06:52 AM): And I told you chris was clean
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:00 AM): what?
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:03 AM): clean?
sllybilygoat89 (2:07:25 AM): Nevermind
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:29 AM): no what do you mean
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:32 AM): ???
sllybilygoat89 (2:07:54 AM): Don't worry about it lets go back to sex
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:11 AM): Have you ever had anything?
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:13 AM): I'm curious.
sllybilygoat89 (2:08:33 AM): No why do you ask
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:54 AM): eh. nothing.
sllybilygoat89 (2:09:12 AM): No tell me
lagginglikeamofo (2:09:37 AM): Only if we talk on the phone.
lagginglikeamofo (2:09:42 AM): if not, change the topic.

Horribly boring day. I missed Chris today. Last year's memories were a bitch to deal with.

The girls and I are going to Ray's kickback tomorrow at his pad.

Only he and YJ will be there.

Operation make-him-squirm is about to commence.

I must say that I have this uncontrollable urge to hook up with him again.

But I want some straight answers first.

The dark question is...

If he has a girlfriend... will that stop me from doing things with him?

It's socially taboo to be the other woman. Then again, with the Ed scandal... it never really stopped me before. Key word though, it was a scandal. Meaning trouble. I really have an issue with relationships, commitment, and loyalty. It doesn't help that I'm a bastard child. But honestly, what do I get out of it? Other than probably wanting to be with him and never being able to have it. So maybe that's where the "let's just have fun" mindset enters.

Anyways. I think we're all going to play it cool, but throw in some quibbs about his hometown, his exes perhaps. I'll probably take him aside, and say this: "Before we go any further, I'd just like to know whether you're involved with someone or not." It's not threatening. It's not "fuck you cheater," and it's not "I'm ooberly obsessed with you and want your dick to be MINE, and mine only." Terrifying. I don't want to scare him. But I want him to realize that I'm smart, I'm not going to be lied to, and I work better off of honesty. If he is cheating, then be straight up with me about it, so we can decide where to go from there. Good Destiny says be his friend, and bitch at him for being a cum-guzzling-gutter-slut. Bad Destiny says do him anyways, use him for what he's worth, then tell the girl after we've hooked up a couple of times. Now if he denies any wrong doing, this is the tricky part... I have partial evidence. His myspace. I might say I've heard differently. I don't want to come off as intense creeper woman... "OH I WAS CREEPING ON MYSPACE THE OTHER DAY..." and my heart sank into my stomach when I saw your girl and you in a picture together. Mixture of guilt and disappointment.

I knew he was too good to be true. Sweet country boy, amazing body (6'1, toned), softest hair ever, sweet motorcycle, good job. OF COURSE THAT NUKKA IS TAKEN. Duh, Destiny.

I really wish things were as easy as they had been with Chris... straight out of high school, innocent, and inexperienced. Sigh.

I'm getting my nails done tomorrow. I need to figure out what I'm bringing to his place. He expects me to spend the night with him, I'm sure. His bed was so comfy. Like amazing, hahaha. I wonder how many chicks said the same thing to him. WHY ARE THE HOT ONES THE MOST EVIL!? Oh well. It'll all come to the forefront. Expecting and preparing for the worst. Ugh, work at 5. Blerggghhh.

OH AND BTW. Here's the letter I wrote to Chris, that little faggot. I texted him last night, asking if he had received his results yet, and he's like "Oh I'm sorry, you care now?" He does his best to aggravate me, and yet I try to remain cordial. His temper is so prone to volcanic erruptions, I think it best to keep him at a distance:

I'm not going to play this little game with you anymore. Withholding information about this isn't a way of getting back at me. So stop it.

You said you might have an STD. You chose the wrong time to talk about it with me last week, and I tried asking you to speak with me later.
As you always do...

You blamed me for the situation, threatened to punch me in the face, then expected me to talk civilly to you, when you never give me the same decency.

Consider that there are STDs that can be dormant in your system. Don't blame me for all of your sexual conquests, Chris. It goes both ways, you could have just as easily given me something.

I got tested on Tuesday, and I won't know for 10-14 days. I just wanted to see if you were okay and if you had sought treatment. If I didn't care about you Chris, you would never hear from or see me again. It's not like I enjoy getting whiplash from your mood swings, from your I love you's to the fuck you's, I try harder to be your friend than you ever have for me. That's fucked up, but whatever.

Don't bother responding to this if you're going to be sarcastic and angry.
I just wanted to know that you're healthy, I hope you are, I never want anything bad to happen to you. I'm still worried about the transplant, I sincerely hope that goes well. You're still in my thoughts.

I wish you the best,
Des
xoxo

I succeeded in helping to cook a Thanksgiving dinner! It wasn't as hard as I imagined - just really time consuming. I now feel confident I can fly solo next year and do the whole meal myself

Some pictures from tonight: (full album)

The turkey came out really well - was not overcooked, and had great flavor!

I helped make this cheesecake last night - which turned out really great. I'm gonna get a copy of that recipe for myself!

Enjoying the company in the kitchen while cooking

Coworker Guerric (on left), who owns the awesome cheesecake recipe, and did a ton of cooking (I just helped out)

Dinner is served!

Mmm, deserts.

Chairs were in great demand; we ended up with quite an assortment.

This is the solution we came up with when trying to make more space.

Post-meal happiness

. . .

Now I'm getting ready for my 3-day road trip up to Carmel-By-The-Sea and Big Sur tomorrow. I've figured out the most important thing: the soundtrack. I'm leaning heavily towards Red Hot Chili Peppers (very chill, cruising music).

I'll see you guys on Sunday night, and I hope all of you had a fantastic Thanksgiving!

And on a more serious note, my heart goes out to the families of those affected by the Mumbai attacks ... such senseless violence...

One of the things I miss about North Carolina are the cool fall rains. There's nothing better to fall asleep to than the pitter patter of the rainfall.

It does not rain in San Diego. Ever. But, as luck would have it, it is raining very steadily tonight - it's just like the rainfalls at home!

To go to bed, hearing the melodic drumming of the raindrops on the streets below ... so awesome.

so here's a fun game to play at the beach. you take a group of your friends, and you line them up, with their backs towards you.

the game is, you throw the football at them, and they have to all jump and turn around and try to catch the football.

now, your goal is to aim for their nads - the moment they turn around, you want to nail them. their goal, much like those guys who defend against soccer free kicks, is to defend their crown jewels.

i had a lot of fun playing this game when i was back in nc - you can tell by how much i'm grinning:

by the way, doesn't that picture make me look somewhat athletic? like i know what i'm doing?? doesn't it??? this could be the most normal picture of me ever taken.